2/5/26

Bro….there's a lot to talk about. First off: I just passed by some dumbass white boys standing in a semicircle with a kid in a hazbian hotel hoodie at the tip who just walked away. Then I heard one of them say: I wanted to rock hisshit...I swear the kids in my school are cavemen because why are we bullying kids in the big 26? I dont like hazbain hotel either but im not messing with kids who like it over it because I actually have better things to do.
next. Pedo cult files fully released a few days ago. I don't even know what to say. You're telling me we had survivors telling us this shit years ago and we just refused to believe them. What the actual fuck. I don’t really want to talk about anymore because I haven't read/looked at highlights because it's actually so disgusting without going in depth and I don't want to turn on my paranoia.
speaking of paranoia. I feel like my medicine is dampening my emotions and it’s scaring me. I'm making mistakes and feeling nothing about them.. I can't take action as easily anymore because there's no emotional drive behind it.
I'm not really feeling challenged in my eng class but I don’t think the alternative is any better? Whatever, it's only the second week.
people don’t lock in anymore, they jst chat-gpt it

What happened to having a good THINK? We are regressing

2/6/26

The due date for submissions for this month's creative writing club prompts are due by the 9th and I've got nothing. Well, not nothing but I've got some shit I could serve. A few melodramatic paragraphs full of faux-sophistication, all culminating in a haphazard metaphor for cocaine addiction. Did I mention the theme was love. Ugh. I said I'd turn something in this time but that probably won't happen. Wait. Okay So I'm obviously I have no girl for Valentine's Day. Surprising. Many of my friends are getting desperate but I just wallow in self pity and fear of being alone forever. I could write a poem about that! Sure technically the theme is love flash fiction but on the submission page, poem is still a selectable option. Yeah.. I can do that in 3 days. Maybe I'll publish it here too, on my rattalks page. On the topic of Valentine's Day , I was thinking about making in animation or something of the like for it,, since I have nothing else to do. (FUCK I just looked it up, it's on a Saturday too..bro). Well I guess Valentine's Day is about love and I love my friends so I can hang out with my friends. Heaven yes dude.

I did a break here so you know I'm digressing for a while(from my pinball machine thought patterns)
On the 4th, I was at club with my friends doing fuck all and we get on the topic of being date-less for valentine's day. Me and uhh let's call her... something poetic because she's very poetic. Uhh I don't know how to be poetic and cool. RBL. Stands for Raging Butch Lesbian(in training). "Perfectt okay. Anyways, me and RBL were like: "Oh my gosh... no one wants me.m ujhh im so alone." over dramatic performance. Then my other friend is like: "what if you guys just date each other?". Um what um. I ignored the question but RBL said something aside like: "I can't date her"(not in a rude way). Which: give this guy a true but.. I don't know. I mean this is my blog and I know she doesn't read it. Shes really aesome i don know . kms

2/10/2026

The 2nd period experience

I made a cool video yesterday. Ooww oww noo please please don't give me a point of view CER kill me bro. I cant write for shit bro not even basic shit bro

2/20/2026

Guy who doesn't understand application models: I don't understand application models.


so many things i want to do. Ahh! Ahhh! Brain so mushy I want to be someone else for the night with no responsibilities. I can't imagine what being an adult will feel like if im already stressed out as an unemployed teen. "I've had a 103 fever for 6 months and I. I can't get it to go down." - the 103 fever guy. Exploring the web is a great hobby I love the web i dislike the heaviness of real life sometimes.
Today I caught up with a friend I haven't talked to in like. a year. which was awesome im glad to see her doing alright. America's women hockey team won gold, heck yezh!! ive been feeling blah lately but its okay. I'm thinking I'm building a resitance to my medicine and I don't know what to think about that. That's scary I dont knwo/ I think Ineed to write fan fiction actually but I don't want it to be hot shit you know what I mean. I don't want it to fall into whatever the ao3 style is called. something house. dont want that

2/24/2026

bro,,, oh my gosh bro.... Come on bro,,, Jeans in court?? Nah. NAH(said like meatcanyon in that one episode of creepcast). I need my mom to come get me quick so i can get a nice pair of pants. Why are jeans so offensive in professional settings? I mean know why it's a nono but I don't know why it is. It is what it is, at least my mom can come get me before i go. Turnk brownie.
I recently cleared up the timeline for my big KAHUNA story which is awesome. I m feeling motivated!! Also I got toonsquid and it works like a beauty. I still need to practice tweening but it is soooo much easier than adobe animate and easier to work on because my ipad is portable. Guy whos happy AND i just looked up if it had squash and stretch cuz last night when i was trying it, I couldn\'t figure out how to distort transform and it DOES have that feature. And a camera!!! And bones!!! Oughh it will be so ttuff. I just really need to work on timing because right now my tweening is so smooth it’s scary. I need to do movement, switch and stop.

And I wanna do a lot of camera movement too, uhh whatever its called you know the showing that there's space between the characters and them interacting with the space. OH MY GOSH WHERE IS SHE. oh wait she’s driving me to the courthouse so im good. She just has to get me there by 4:45pm. Oh god please. Praying dog.

2/25/2026

My mom got to the school in time and I think I nearly gave my teammates a heart attack when I arrived at the circuit court with 7 minutes to spare. The mock trial went well in my opinion but we lost to the Evil school, I hope they defeat the More Evil School: Eviler School. I was so tired during my math test this morning and although I didn't fall asleep, I was very slow. I'm pretty sure I failed cause half of it was guessing and the FRQ I didn't finish. Oh m gosh bro whatever bro. Kids yelling "I hate hitler!", in the back of the class, maybe the world is healing